December 2009
6 posts
i’m just really hoping and praying that tonight, i will be so happy that it will override all the bad feelings i’ve been feeling and that sleeping at nick’s tonight will prevent me from being upset or crying. i threw up in my bed last night. glorious. just what i needed. delilah came in and snuggled with me. she laid on my back and purred until i fell asleep. it calmed me down. i...
and when you find yourself at ease, you never will be. you never will be.
i have the greatest friends in the world. just keep trying to remind myself of how lucky i am. threw up this morning. i’m sick of my stomach. it’s always back and forth. i just want to feel better. i know what i should do for new year’s (go out and have fun with my friends), but all i really want to do...
it feels weird to be spending christmas by myself. i guess i’m not technically by myself because i have the most amazing friends in the world, but it’s hard not having someone who was and still is, in my opinion, such a big part of me. it’s like the other half of my heart is missing. i think this is the end of it this time and i really can’t bear the thought of that. i...
my mom just hysterically laughed at this picture and thought liz was me at first. i have the BEST friends in the world.
favorite place. favorite bed. i belong there.
i’m in a funk. i need an attitude adjustment or something. all of my friends are trying to help too and i’m just being a cranky brat. i admit it. i’ve never felt so lost before. everything seems so overwelming and it’s only because i’m making it that way. i feel depressed. literally depressed. i’ve never felt so...
since i cannot convey how i feel:
we hung like space stations and rocketships and dreamed like we were things of the sky. we dressed like kings and queens and lovers and shouted out into the night “we’re never gonna die” and i’ve waited here for hours, hoping that you’d call and my dialing finger’s tired and your machine is full and i’ve taken 18 showers...